28
A Killing Resolve
"No thief has
part," said the bailiff, "in the kingdom of God--or in the kingdom of
England. Moreover, so that men's hearts are not fully set in them to do evil,
we justly pronounce speedy sentence against the evil of this evil man. His
crime? Thievery. His sentence? Slow hanging from the neck until dead."
I had witnessed
public hangings in my life, several of them, and I had seen men die in battle.
But something about the wide baleful eyes of this poor condemned man, casting
about like a stag brought to bay by a pack of hounds, the tremulous lips, the
teary rivulets streaking down his soiled and blanching cheeks arrested my
attention.
By the coarse
sacking that served for his tunic, his threadbare trousers, and the absence of
shoes of any kind on his wide stubby feet, I knew him to be a peasant of the
lowest rank. The bailiff was not using hyperbole when he referred to a speedy
sentence. Appearing from nowhere, the black-hooded executioner stepped forward,
roughly seizing the trembling peasant by the arm. After my initial inspection,
I diverted my eyes, loathe to look too closely upon a man who would in moments
be gasping his last breath at the noose. But something about the man compelled
me to look more closely. The man was no stoic, and perhaps it was the genuine
humanness of his terror at the prospect of dying that compelled me. I watched
his features, his flaring nostrils, his mouth opening and closing as he gulped
for air, his desperate casting about for the wanted resolution to endure his
fate.
Wordlessly, the
hangman encircled the condemned man's neck with the bulky noose and cinched it
snug. For an instant, I wondered what compelled a man to become a hangman, to
don the ominous black hood, to be the last human touch a condemned man knew
before his abrupt departure from this life.
Next, a gray-robed
friar lumbered up to the thief. Instantly, I knew the man. It was the fat friar
of the tournament, the one who had nearly killed Willard by his deception. The
condemned man looked hopefully at the cleric. "You have sinned," said
Hubert the friar in a blunt monotone.
"I-I am a
s-sinner," stammered the man, his voice raspy. "But I’m no
th-thief--"
With a dismissive
wave of his thick hand, Hubert cut him off. "Indeed, you are a great
sinner," he said.
"Father,
absolve me of my sins before I die," begged the peasant, seizing Hubert by
the sleeves of his habit.
"Unhand me,
knave!" cried Hubert. "Absolve you, say you? But do you so lightly
value the holy absolution of God that you presume to seek it free of charge,
gratis?"
Hubert's meaning
was obvious; he had no intention of absolving the dying man without payment.
Blinking rapidly as he tried to comprehend what the friar meant, the condemned
man at last found his voice and stammered, "Look at me, friar. I 'ave
nothing, no silver. I'm about to die. More than anything in all the world, I
value absolution of my sins. But there's nothing I can pay."
In sympathetic and
ominous expectancy, I felt a constricting in my throat. I was nearly frantic
and wished that Wycliffe was there with me, but he was at our labors back at
the scriptorium. It would be too late if I ran to fetch him. Yet, I thought I
knew what he would tell the condemned man. I felt still more certain I knew
what words he would have for Hubert.
"Who's the
real thief, here!" called a voice from the crowd. Dozens had gathered,
eager to watch the public spectacle. Shouldering his way through the crowd,
another peasant stormed forward. His face was red with rage, and people pressed
back, eager to get out of his way. The constricting in my throat grew tighter.
It was Willard.
Hubert turned. As
recognition dawned, his face too became the color of red hot coals in a
brazier, and his mouth curled in hatred.
"You, cursed
friar, you are the robber," said Willard, halting before the tonsured
cleric. "It's your fat neck that belongs in that noose. Yours and all your
kind," he growled.
Just when I thought
the two were about to take each other, throat in hand, and the hanging would be
interrupted by a public brawl, the condemned man spoke.
"Willard, they'll
do what they're going to do to me." His voice was more of a sob.
"Give me comfort, my friend, before I die."
His words triggered
something inside Willard, something human and tender. After one last look of
defiance at Hubert, he turned to his friend. The hangman looked like he was
about to bar Willard's way, but stepped hastily aside under the withering
fierceness of his bulk.
Brow pressing brow,
the two peasants embraced. I overheard snatches of their parting words. I heard
Willard refer to the man as Garth and as cousin. And I heard Garth calm his
friend as Willard began to storm and threaten revenge at the injustice that
would end his friend and cousin's life.
I lack clarity on
what transpired next. Alfred admitted later that he attempted to stop me but to
no avail. Without my concerted intention, and without knowing precisely what I
was doing or what I was going to say, I found myself standing by the condemned
man and his cousin. There was recognition in his eyes as Willard scanned me
from head to toe, but there was withering hostility as well, as if I had
trespassed on a sacred moment and was unwelcome in the intimacy of their final
conversation together. Why his reaction did not prompt me to turn and resume my
place in the crowd, I will never fully know. It would have been by far the
easier course. Yet I felt somehow compelled to offer to the dying man what
Hubert had so cruelly denied him.
“There is
absolution to be had,” I began haltingly.
“Aye, for a price,”
growled Willard. “Always for a price. Don’t torment my cousin with your bloody
nonsense! Go your way! He has nothing.”
I swallowed the
hard lump that had formed in my throat, nearly choking me. But I felt I had to
press on. “There is a price, but it’s not payable in silver or gold to the likes
of this friar. Prelates deceive men by feigned indulgences and pardons, and rob
them cursedly of their money. No amount of money given to fraudulent friars can
purchase absolution from our many sins." The more I spoke the more easily
the words flowed. "Men be great fools who buy these pardons so dear.”
They were not
really my own words, that much I well knew. When I paused for breath, Willard stared hard and unblinkingly at me,
but he did not tell me to go away. Garth grabbed me by the sleeve as if clutching
at his last hope of deliverance.
And then words from
our translation of John’s Gospel sprang to my memory. I felt I must offer them
to the peasant in the language he spoke at his plow. It would do him no good
otherwise. "Forsothe God so louede the world, that he gaf his oon bigetun
sone, that ech man that bileueth in to him perische not, but haue euerlastynge
lyf."
I did my best to
explain that the price of our sins was too great for any of us to pay, that no
amount of gold or silver, or good works or vigils, or pilgrimages, or acts of
self-improvement or self-sacrifice could secure absolution. But Jesus, God’s
only begotten Son, was given to pay the price, the full price for perishing
sinners like Garth, and in love to give us himself as a free gift, to be had
without money and without price, and by his atoning work and his righteousness,
to give us life everlasting.
Garth wept at my
words and begged me to pray for his soul. “The dying thief, dear man, had
nothing, could do nothing to save his soul. Nevertheless, Jesus, while dying on
the cross, promised the condemned thief paradise. Believe, Garth, believe
Jesus, and you’ll have no need of prayers, or candles, or indulgences. Like
that long-ago thief, you too will be in paradise with the sweet Lord Jesus.”
I wasn’t fully
prepared for what happened next. How does one prepare for such a thing? The
hangman had had enough of my talk. With a great heave he hoisted Garth by the
neck. Clutching at the noose, growing ever tighter about his neck, Garth kicked
frantically, his mouth agape like a codfish, his eyes wide and growing wider. I
felt hot tears coursing down my face and dripping from my nose and chin. There
was nothing I could do for the man.
Then, roaring like
a charging bear, Willard threw the full weight of his body onto his cousin and
clung to him. My first thought was that it was a last gesture of familial love,
a farewell embrace. It was all of that, but more than I at first comprehended.
With that embrace there was sickening crack as the full weight of Willard’s
body pulled down on Garth’s neck, and the condemned man’s head lolled to one
side. His limbs gave off a final convulsion. Meanwhile, a hush fell over the
crowd. Willard released his grip and stood stony-faced, gazing up at the still
form of his cousin, the rope creaking as the dead man swayed slowly in the
light breeze.
Numbly, I surveyed
the scene that had just unfolded before me, my attention arrested by Willard's
grief-stricken face. His hollow eyes, the plowed furrows of misery on his brow,
the hurt, the loneliness, all mingled with teeth-clenching resolve stirred in
me some long-forgotten memory. I felt again I had seen this man before, many,
many years long past.
“Release him!” It
was Willard’s voice, booming with command in the stillness, yet strained with
emotion. Without a directive from the bailiff, the hangman lowered the rope.
Willard cradled his cousin’s body in his arms as the hangman loosened the noose
and lifted it over the lifeless face and head.
The crowd parted
silently, almost reverently, as Willard passed through them. His jaw was set;
and though his cheeks were streaked with tears, his face was hard. There was
rage, rage like that of maddened bull, and there was unstinting resolve
straining every muscle in his powerful body. I watched as his woman fell in
behind her man, her head bowed, her wavy locks covering her face, her shoulders
convulsing with sobs. In a moment they disappeared with their friend and
cousin—and their grief.